Love and Hate, Happiness and Sadness, and Shit On My Head

Well everyone should just shit all over me right now and get it over with.

Or what?

You're all happy one day because your belly is full of pizza.  Happy happy happy.  Life rules.

And then something goes wrong with something you have a lot invested in or you literally get fucked in the ass.  Then you are all sad sad sad.  Sadness becomes you.  Life sucks.

Then a cool TV show you love comes on and you drink a Coke Zero and you are happy happy happy again.  What is going on here?  Are we monkeys in a cosmic experiment?  Even if you followed all of the rules you are supposed to follow and did all the things are you supposed to do and never did the things you are not supposed to do you would still go through the same shit a shithead like me goes through--the same cycle for everyone.

You love someone so deeply.  And because you love them so deeply you are capable of intense opposite feelings.

Your heart is so glad and you love someone so much.  You're all happy and gay.  So gay.  All smiles and shit.  Nothing can bring you down...

Ah yes, except when she sucks someone else's dick.  Or you do something to fuck it all up.  Or if you're a woman, YOUR dude goes out and fucks some OTHER girl who, according to you, is a whore.

And then hate arrives (hate for yourself or someone else) and you can literally sit in a corner and stew all day in your hatred.  Thank you Lord!

Life is all love and hate and happiness and sadness all day every day all night every night.  How else could God keep us so occupied and sane other than by keeping us ever shifting.  We couldn't be happy forever without losing our minds or forgetting what happiness is.  The same goes for sadness, love, and hate.

It is no wonder humans are so narcissistic!  The happiness is satisfying, the sadness is satisfying, the hatred is satisfying, the love is satisfying and we cannot get enough.

We are ever consumed and too busy with this shifting and changing of mind to think about the fact that we'll be dead in 90 years if not sooner.  We're screwed.  You might as well shit on me now.  Nicely done.  Nicely done.  Our minds constantly diverted, I suppose this way of living is pleasant enough and it could definitely be worse.  Maybe THIS is as good as it gets.

Everything is so weird and confusing.  I love, but it seems like I just can't help being a shithead.  My head is made of shit.  Maybe I am doomed.  Maybe I am not.  I don't know if I had a choice in being the way I am.  Just roll with it I guess.  Try to do what's right.  Love fully, deeply and truly.  There is hope.  FIND TRUTH--let IT guide you.  Watch No Reservations and drink Coke Zero.  Wait to die.

for the love of all people, for the hate of sin,
happiness for the future glory and the
ultimate defeat of death, sadness for the
fallen state of humankind